Buying a toy

So I have been considering buying a toy for awhile because just using my hands has gotten very boring now. I have a visa gift card that I received and I was considering buying one so my mom doesn’t find out through bank statements or whatever. (I’m 16 btw) and I’m about to order this small vibrator off of Spencer’s website and I have enough money to get it, but I am honestly scared of getting caught. Like I will definitely track the package and try my best to intercept it so no one else in my family just finds it on the porch. Because they will open it regardless who’s it is🤦🏻‍♀️ But idk I’m still scared? I guess my question is, Was buying your first vibrator or toy worth it? Because I’m also nervous about not liking it and just wasting my time and money on this.