Difficult time with penetration

I'm having a hard time. I met a cute guy and we were hooking up but when he went to push in it hurt so much. We stopped, but again I feel like my body is just failing me. I don't like masterbating, I prefer someone else touching me. But lately it's just like a quick shove of fingers and it doesn't feel nice. Just odd. I feel like I need to be stretched but people say that's weird (women included)

I don't get what's wrong with me. Why is my body failing me. I feel such shame. 😭