Literally wtf

Im so embarrassed me and my partner had abit of a session this morning where he went down on me but i couldnt cum cos i had so many things going on in my head anyway i told him to just f me instead which he was fine with then he proceeds to spit on my area which sends me into a frenzy of trying to hold back gagging and throwup noises while he screws me anyway i hold onto to all my sanity for dear life as i do not want to trumatise this man and this whole time hes pounding down and im keeping it together untill he cums on me and omg it just disgusts me the spit the cum the hot feeling everything and my body just starts dry heaving like 5 6 times and he is just looking at me like wth... is this a thing?! We arent dirty or anything i dont know why i lost it the way i did any insights?