Could really use some support right now❤️‍🩹

Hi, Im not sure where to start because too much has happened. I don’t have insurance so I can’t go to therapy so this has to be the next best thing. I have been dealing with some of the most painful and traumatic events in my life lately due to my relationship I’m in, it’s worse than when I was 12 and found out my dad had cancer and watched him suffer with it for the next 6 years until it eventually killed him. I truly never thought that anything could top that but than I had my own child. Now I am 25 with a 2 year old and have been in a relationship with his father for almost 6 years now . This relationship has been a whirlwind of events that have really impacted me in ways that have me feeling like I don’t know who I am anymore and I’m frightened by the future. If anyone’s available to talk I think I’m probably better at explaining this thru a phone call I just really need some outside of the box perspective support. Thanks to anyone who takes the time to read this and if you can call me I can send my # to you in a pm.