9 weeks 🤰🏻

So by my dates I’m 9 weeks 4 days. I’ve not got my first appointment till 12th December and cause I’m so impatient and worried I’ve booked a private scan for tomorrow. I’m just so worried that there won’t be a heart beat. I can’t stop thinking about it. I think it’s cause I don’t really feel that pregnant and I’m not throwing up like my last pregnancy with my son 4 years ago. Am I being silly or does it sound normal 😩. I also keep getting dull cramps but no bleeding x