Don’t let people get into your head

I have a 9 month old. I knew from the moment I got pregnant I wasn’t ready to be a mother. I was scared , i just got into five colleges and was ready to embark on my journey. But instead , i asked family members and peers what they thought and they all told me God put her in my life for a reason. That I needed to pick up the responsibility.. i could do it. I needed to have her because i would regret it if i didn’t. If i could go back in time I’d get the abortion. We don’t have a bond, and I am literally struggling with my mental health so much because she’s here. I wanted to be ready to have a child and i wasn’t. I’m still not. So please choose wisely.