I have been trying to conceive now for seventeen months. Aunt flo came today. I've stopped expecting it not to come now but once a month I have a complete breakdown where I cant eat and I cry uncontrollably I just want to stay in bed.

It feels like no one else understands but my heart breaks every single month. I have only ever wanted to be a mum and now every month I face the prospect of that not happening. We don't qualify for <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> on the NHS in the area we live in the UK and I am not sure how we will fund it privately.

I just want the pain to stop.

Anyone else going through this able to tell me when it gets easier?

Thanks in advance