Calling anyone with panic attacks or a panic disorder

Ebony Jay • I'm 23 and my boyfriend is 28, from mid Wales, two angel babies and one beautiful daughter, Elsie born on 23.02.18
I'm really suffering recently. When I was in school I had panic attacks everyday, it was draining. I thought i had them sorted. I didn't suffer for nearly 3 years. Then I lost my daughter as twenty weeks gestation in March. Then I had another miscarraige at nearly 11 weeks in July. My panic attacks have been getting progressively worse since then. I need some advice on how to deal with it. I don't want to go an antidepressants, last time I went on them I felt like a zombie. Any tips and tricks I would be greatly for. Feel like I'm spiralling put of control and can't pick myself up again. Help! Please no negative comments I cannot deal with that right now