My best friend had cystic fibrosis and sadly passed away in February at only 26 years old. I'm not good with sharing emotions and literally haven't cried in front of anyone because I simply can't. I'm 19 weeks pregnant with my second and fear that me turning my grief inwards is going to somehow hurt my child. She was my only friend to be honest and I can't talk to anyone about her, not even my oh. I wake up in the middle of the night at least once a week to have a good cry and feel sorry for myself. I guess I just needed to vent to see if it would help, sorry for the sad post but my heart is utterly in pieces and I miss her so much.