Got that "what could have been" feeling again😢

Kay • Mummy to precious angels too beautiful for earth👼🏼💕
Finding it so hard lately to cope with the "what could have been" feeling again. It's so so hard to cope when I have the most gorgeous nephew (who's was due a week after my little angel) who is now 3 months old coming to see me daily. I hold him and just want to burst into tears thinking I could have been holding my own right now. We stopped using protection 4 years ago fell pregnant in July last year & sadly lost it @ 5weeks & 2 days, fell pregnant again in September and lost that angel too( only found out I was pregnant when I was bleeding) just want to know when our time will be that I get my rainbow baby 😭