Am a lesbian???

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I’ve never in my life been attracted to a woman or had a crush on one. Every since I was a child I’ve been boy crazy. I’m 19 and have an amazing boyfriend and have for 4 years. I’ve suddenly become obsessed with the thought of me being a lesbian. I make myself remember things that happened in the past such as me thinking a girls butt looked nice and associate that with me being a lesbian. Again, I’ve ALWAYS been boy crazy. I’ve always had boyfriends and crushes.

I’ve always liked lesbian porn way more than straight porn but I know many women are like that. I definitely think some women are attractive and I’ve turned that into me wanting those women, rather than wanting to look/be them. I always check out other girls and look at their butts and bodies. I don’t think I could be in a relationship with a girl but I do have lesbian fantasies. Lesbian porn looks so good but I don’t want to be that way.

Is it normal for women to think other women are attractive and have nice bodies and such?

I have major anxiety and it’s driving me crazy. I don’t want to be a lesbian and this scares me. Someone please help!😭