I'm currently still going through the process (day 3). The baby passed 5 hours after starting the treatment. This is my 2nd abortion. I was 8 weeks. I spent 3 weeks in turmoil going back and forth about what I wanted to do but in the end rushed myself to start the treatment. The very second I swallowed that first pill I was filled with regret and just broke down sobbing. I hate myself, and I feel like a murderer and all I keep thinking is that I want my baby back.

For anyone that's had to go through this how did you heal? How did you remind yourself that you had reasons, even if they feel to not matter once the process starts? I just can't stop crying and thinking about what I passed. The whole thing came out intact on the toilet paper, you could tell where everything was forming. I'm really really not looking for sympathy, nor negative comments because I don't think my mental health can take it right now, I've already had thoughts of self harm.

Thank you for reading this far.