My boyfriend makes me feel bad that I won’t take birth control...

My boyfriend and I just started having sex over a year and a half ago. I was a virgin and lost it with him. He’s my first.

Lately though, he’s not happy with always using a condom. I get that... but he makes me feel bad that I’m concerned to take birth control pills. He says “I can’t fucking feel anything.” And makes me literally feel like the worst person cause I won’t take the pill. He complains a lot about it when we have sex. He says “every girl I’ve dated has taken it. It won’t change anything. Just probably make you get bigger boobs with your hormone changes” bigger boobs? Way to make me feel worse about my small boob situation why don’t ya. We’ve been together for 2 1/2 years.

I’m just really tired of feeling like the enemy here. He makes me feel bad about being hesitating about the pill.