Cucumbers use???

Julia

I stuff my butt and Vag with small cucumbers and rub my clit at the same time and move cucumbers with other hand while laying in bed. I don't do that often but maybe once a week. Do you think that I might get infection or something. Also do you think my vagina will get too loose. I use big cucumber for vag and little for butt. Thanks friends. I know it's very weird question. I feel ashamed like I am monster or something.