Feeling like a failure

Am I the only one that just feels like they keep failing? I had a missed miscarriage in October which was so hard to go through, I managed to pull myself out of a pretty dark place and most of the time I am much better however each time AF arrives I just feel like a massive failure all over again.

My husband is wonderful and can't tell me enough that it is in no way my fault but I still blame myself.

Does anyone else feel like this when AF arrives? Will I ever stop feeling like I failed?

We have been ttc for 18 months, 3 months of which I was pregnant 😔