Getting straight to the point. My father groomed and raped my oldest sister. That sister and I don’t share the same father so he’s not blood related to her but it still is absolutely no excuse and foul. As soon as she turned 18 he raped her and ended up impregnating her. He never went to jail for what he did but he went to jail for dealing drugs, he has been in and out for years. I was 7 when he raped my sister so I didn’t completely understand the situation as a child but was aware this dynamic wasn’t normal, the only reason I knew that is because I was my mother’s confidante as a child. But she kept her relationship going with him even after all of this happened. My sister ended up forcefully keeping her child because my father was abuse. My mother even had another child with him after this went on. As I’m typing this I feel sick to my stomach. My father went to prison for a pretty long time and for those years he was away we were able to rebuild our relationship and financial stability considering he was an addict and made us lose our house due to his habits. He got out about a year ago and she started recently seeing him again and talking to him again. She’s been out every night with him and even stayed with him during days. My mother has a 12 year old child to raise and my sisters and I have been taking on the mother role. I thought this was over the most recent time he went away, she released all of her trauma during him being gone and claimed he was the devil and that she could never see him again. Now that I’m an adult and have control over my life I’ve been lashing out at my mother. She never has anything to say to me. I’ve cried my eyes out to her and poured my heart out and she just ignored me, she sat there and cried but ignored me. I miss my mother but she’s refusing to change. I’m so lost. What do I do? How do I cope with the fact that she’s choosing my father (a pedo) over me.